Another way of stating the fundamental conflict in my mind




My drive to specialness, to individual identity is but the drive to avoid relationship, which, in any ultimate sense, is impossible. Therefore, as long as I persist in the belief
Pain ?  the pain engendered by this split cannot be wished away and can only be pushed into sub-consciousness and projected onto something seemingly external. 

wish you were there...



I lean my head against the car window, watching the scenery zip by, a tableau of dark green fir trees dotted with snow, wispy strands of white fog, and heavy gray storm clouds up above. It's so warm in the car that the windows keep fogging up, and I draw little squiggles in the condensation. Happy to be in a warm car with my sonata and my family. I close my eyes.

PS: thanks for being my friend.



there comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

The need to belong

Humans are social animals. Evolutionarily speaking, it is fair to say that social bonding has helped us survive. It is a tough world out there, and we have a lot better shot at thriving if we're sharing resources and responsibilities, protecting and supporting each other in groups. The is not say you need to be joined at the hip with everyone-our social needs have to be balanced with our autonomy, or sense of personal control, so we feel both connected and independent. However, sometimes we are denied that sense of belonging. We have all experienced the pain of being ignored or rejected at some point in our lives. It is worse than just about anything. The evidence for this is bundant - one recent study suggested that teenagers who had a sense of belonging to their community had better health and emotional outcome than those who did not feel like they belonged. Cultures all over the world actually use ostracism, or social exclusion, as a type of punishment whether it's kids in time-out, adults in exile, or prisoners in solitary confinement, separation feels like a punch in the gut

TUNISIA...A HAPPY FAMILY

GOAL: To visit 6 countries by DECEMBER  18th, 2024

CURRENT STATUS: 1/6
the first step toward my new goal if visiting Six Countries


December, 19 th, was the day when I took the first step toward that dream I set recently, I always read about how much amazing is to travel but I never knew how much wonderful and extraordinary is to try and experience it urself...
It was fast, yeah I believe that I became more able to use the SECRET more than any other time, and I own that to first my God Allah and then to the environment where I live, my friends, my teachers and every single person I knew even the people I don't....this is what I believe it made me build a great understanding to how live this journey...

 Fisrt Day:
it was Friday.  I like Fridays for its blessings. Its the day of rest and Couscouss, I woke up on my mother's voice, it was cold and I could barely open my eyes. I wished to sleep for just five minutes but in the end I woke up, I brushed my teeth washed my face as fast as I can- I have always been the slowest person in preparing herself in our home- so I kinda hate to give the same impression to my cousin and aunt that I gave to my family....
By the time we got all our stuff out in the driveway, it was clear we had a space problem. Mom and my aunt started going through everything and wondering how we could fit all our staff in the car.
but we did...continued

Time is unity


Electrical impulses, every cell knows and talks to every other cell, they exchange a thousand bits of information between them per second. Cells group together, forming a giant web of communication, which in turn forms matter, cells get together and take one form, deform, reform. Makes no difference, it is all the same.

Humans consider themselves Unique, so they rooted their whole theory of existence on their uniqueness. “One” is their unit of measure. But it is not, all social systems we’ve put into place are a mere sketch, One plus one equals two. That is all we have learned. But one plus one has never .equaled two. There are, in fact no numbers and no letters. We have codified our existence to bring it down to human size to make it comprehensible. We have created a scale so that we can forget unfathomable scale. But if the humans are not the unit of measure and the world isn’t governed by mathematical laws, what governs all that? Film a car speeding down a road. Speed up the image infinitely and the car disappears. So what proof do we have of its existence? Time gives legitimacy to its existence. Time is the only true unit of measure. It gives proof to the existence of matter. Without time, we do not exist.

Planning to Live My Life My Way....Personal Goal Setting


Through travel I first became aware of the outside world; it was through travel that I found my own introspective way into becoming a part of it.
-Eudora Welty 


GOAL: To visit 6 countries by DECEMBER  18th, 2024

CURRENT STATUS: 0/6

hey reader
Goal setting is a powerful process for thinking about your ideal future, and for motivating yourself to turn your vision of this future into reality, and since I'm not from the kind of people that  feel as if they're adrift in the world. They work hard, but they don't seem to get anywhere worthwhile. so I like to spent enough time thinking about what I want from life...and here I'm setting a new goal of visiting 6 countries in the world, with the SMART mnemonic 

- A new label was created in the blog.
- Six countries must be chosen.
- Two backbags must be bought.
- Camera must be charged.

              Fouzia Must Be Ready 

                     I was born ready to do that