I lay my back on the chair, my head spinning, I was too confused with the children’s screaming, too excited, my foot were touching the floor, after a while, they weren't, not any more, I’m getting higher and higher, surprised by myself feeling the peaceful I wouldn't yearned for, I was looking for pulses to be heard in my ears, for Adrenalin to be kicked in my veins, I closed my eyes, trying to make sense of it, only to be swallowed up by the consciousness so swiftly claiming my new wings.